Friday, April 29, 2005
yesterday, my hubby accompany me 2 c d dentist. perasaan yg paling tak menyeronokkan!!! ish.... sungguh tak suka!!! after dat, we went tengok wayang entitle 'the pacifier' starring vin diesel. ok-oklah citer nyer. but being a fan of vin diesel of course jadi sungguh 'gumbira'. heheheee... fuyooo!!! smalam cuaca nyer tersangat panas! hari ini pula, demam pulak!!! semalaman terdedah ngan cuaca yg katanyer terpanas kat s'pore nie... entahlah, i pun kurang pasti.... tapi yg i pasti..... memang tekak nie tersangat perit. pikir2 balik.... ngeri nyer teringat kan di hari pembalasan kelak! tak tertanggung beb!!!
anyway, tadi baru tengok d american idol..... ish, si constantine mauroulis dah terkeluar!!! banyak fan dia yg tak happy. oh well, inilah dikatakan d name of d game. i'm sure yg lain pun tak lama lagi terkeluar n only two will remain standing.
oklah.... i need 2 rest cos my head is about 2 split in 2!!! pening sangat!!! pening & nak termuntah nie..... okie dokie..... foxy out!!! (berangan 'cam si ryan seacrest plak hehehe....)
whispering at...6:30 AM
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
specially 4 my dear cousin
Afiah -a.k.a- Pipi
i promise not 2 disturb u... but i just can't help it! u know dat i love u so much rite? so, in rememberence of ur very 'special' day....... i just wanna say............
CONGRATULATIONS!!!
or is it condolence???TAHNIAH!!!
or is it takziah???heheeheee........ jgn marah eh..... just joking. i am so proud of u. keep up the good 'work' n sabar..... sabar itu adalah separuh dpd iman...... lots of love n xoxoxoxoxo!
whispering at...12:21 AM
Friday, April 22, 2005
just want to share dis... a frenz sent them n d wordings so simple yet so meaningful. chk it out...c",)" jika hati sejernih air,
jgn biar ia keruh
jika hati seputih awan,
jgn biar ia mendung
jika hati seindah bulan,
hiasi ia dgn iman... "
bermakne btul nie....
whispering at...10:03 PM
Thursday, April 21, 2005
kalau dah rezeki..... YAHOOOOOO!!!! i did went to Taufik's concert!!!
semalam, i post yg i tak pegi to Taufik Batisah, d first s'pore idol nyer concert rite? well, well, well.... kalau dah rezeki tu, tak kemana. i did went n d shows really2 rawk! he brought d house down!!!
kalau dah memang rezeki i..... yesterday, last minute my sis call me, she said her frenz tak jadi pegi so, she really beriya-iya ajak i cos she dun know how 2 go there. my hubby kasi green light n he knew actually, i really nak pegi sampai tak bleh tido... apelagi, in a flurry lah i dibuat nyer! cam lipas kudung.... so d rest is history.... i went.... n he sang..... fuyooooo!!!!! dia nyanyi lagi better than his cd. so mesmerizing!!! lagu rap dia.... tak bleh nak cakap!!! gerek habis... sayang tak bleh bawak my dig.camera kalau tidak.... dah i letak gambar2 dia kat blog nie.... sorry afiah n yayah.... u tak dapat ikut cos ticket limited lah. kat sana ada jugak fan dia nak beli d ticket tapi tak bleh cos all by invitation aje. kesian jugak seh tengok diorang.
tapi yg i happy sangat2 ialah i saw, talked n joked with mayuni! d up n coming songwriter n music arranger. he is so sweet n good looking! shuk, jgn jealous tau heeheeeheeee.... (mentel jugak eh... hahaha...just joking...)
overall, it's a fantastic nite! he's da man!!! icha, u jgn berangan plak... jgn sampai termimpi2 ngan si taufik plak! aku relek aje.... 'taufik' aku ada kat rumah...c",) heheheee.... i'm so hepi-mepi-depi-kepi!!!
whispering at...1:32 AM
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
Penyesalan, Menyesal, Sesalan.........sob, sob, sob.... yesterday, i had turn down an invitation 2 taufik batisah nyer concert! imagine, 2day at 7.30 pm, at kallang theatre. his concert is by INVITATION only! exclusive 2 selected fan n not open 2 public! n i let this slipped away! my sis 'cam tak percaya yg i turn her down, n my excuse is dat... i dun want my hubby 2 return home 2 an empty house, tak sampai hati.....('cam isteri soleha seh...) later told my hubby about it, n he suruh i pegi n enjoy myself, he will b ok. my hubby always give me total freedom 2 go out or 2 berkawan dgn sapa2 saja cos he trust me n i tahu akan batasan2 yg ada dlm Islam. tapi i slalu rasa tak sedap hati nak pegi mane2 tanpa dia disisi. sometimes, his total trust is totally amazing! tapi.... dah terlambat... cos she already asked orang lain!(2 pun i yg suruh!). i could have kick myself 4 being wishy-washy about this! takpe lah, dah bukan rezeki... sampai tak bleh tido. 2day wake up at 2.50 am. try 2 get back 2 sleep tak bleh jugak. so, here i am, trying to kurangkan my penyesalan..... sob, sob sob.... waaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!! nak ikut!!!icha, if u read this, pls dun say.... "2lah, mentel! ajak tak nak, kan dah menyesal!!!". icha, malam ini, ingatlah daku dalam 'ke-enjoy-an' mu!!! kirim salam kat taufik..... sob, sob, sob......
whispering at...6:30 PM
Saturday, April 16, 2005
2 all frenz.... sapa2 yg nak komen dah bleh cos i baru jer letak kat blog nie. sapa2 yg tak nak komen, pun takpe..... dun worry, i tak report pada police... u r save. salam ceria....
whispering at...11:17 PM
Thursday, April 14, 2005
sekarang hubby dah tak pakai spek pasal dia telah menjalani lasik wavefront surgery. so dia dah ada perfect eyesight. alhamdulillah.... during n after d surgery, there's no complication. syukur pada ALLAH....
p/s:- i dedicate kan this photo to fungkur. hehehee.... jgn ketawakan eh... i dah cakap gambar kite tak jambu. kalau ketawakan jugak ish....... didenda ngan memakan telor 100 biji at one go. i think kat german takde sakit demam ayam kan? just joking....c",) sayonara.......
Monday, April 11, 2005
2day, suddenly i remembered a poem which i wrote during my stay in the hospital. aku tujukan khas untuk almarhum anakku Ahmad Adam bin Ahmad Dani. lima tahun lama nyer aku menantikan kelahiran mu tapi....... kau telah pergi dengan sekelip mata buat selama2 nyer meninggal kan kami. ayah mu menyambut mu tapi kau telah tiada. ayah mu tetap puas kerana telah sempat mendakap dan mencium mu berulang2 kali..... wajah mu persis wajah ayah mu kerana seingat ku, sewaktu mengandungkan mu, aku suka sangat melihat wajah ayah mu dan terlalu belas apabila melihat raut wajah nya tersenyum bahagia.
aku tak pernah menyesal diatas pemergian mu, kau suci.... tapi... bila rindu datang bertandang.... aku tak bisa menghalang airmata ini dari menitis dan terus menitis. jika kau ada disisi kami, usia mu kini sudah menjangkau 7 tahun. sudah pun bersekolah. around us, people keep on asking me when are you going 2 have the no.2? i keep on explaining 2 them that medically, i'm not fit and too risky but they just don't understand. at times i feel so fed-up!! my hubby always said dat our son is waiting for us in heaven. so be it if on earth we dun have any children but always to remember dat he is in heaven. my dear hubby, u r too patient..... thanx dear for understanding my condition n for accepting me as i am.
dibawah nie, poem yg ku tulis sewaktu aku terlantar dihospital dan selepas aku melahirkan adam. ia tak seberapa & tak seindah poem2 yg pernah ku baca tapi ini luahan dari hati ku yg hiba....
Buat Ahmad Adam bin Ahmad Dani
27th January 1998
anak ku
kau hadir tanpa ku sedari
hadirmu terubat sanubari
betapa besar harapanku
agar kau dapat tegakkan agamaku
tapi sayang seribu sayang
ALLAH tak mengizinkan
kau pergi tanpa tangisan
tidak sempat mama membelai
untuk mengucup & dikucupi
untuk menyusui & mendakapi
kau suci sesuci hamparan putih
sayang & kasih ku taburi
dari kejauhan hai anak ku
entah kapan kita kan bersua
mungkin kah kau ingat
mungkin kah kau lupa
akan diriku wahai sayang
namun kasih & sekalung doa
aku hadiahkan padamu adam
agar kau bahagia disisi ALLAH
syurga nan abadi yang ku pinta
buat mu adam, anak ku sayang
tiada kekata yang dapat ku ucap
akan rindu yang memuncak
hanya tangisan ku penuh redha
akan ketentuan takdir ALLAH
walau hari berselang tahun
kau sentiasa dihati mama
anak ku yang soleh & yang suci
tenang abadi kau disana
nantikan mama wahai sayang
pasti kita kan bersama
itulah harapan mama
insya'ALLAH
amin....
whispering at...11:35 PM
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
finally, we bought a new printer. nothing much, nothing fancy, just 4 home use. tried HP printer b4, now i nak try EPSON plak. dah beli last week tapi... blum pasang lagi. so, i tak leh nak bandingkan d printing nyer quality. but one thing 4 sure, d ink 4 epson is damn cheap! after years n years of buying HP ink, fuyooo!!!! terasa murah nyer! my hubby nak pasangkan tapi i told him later lah cos i nak baca d manual dulu. well.....later will update n compare between HP n EPSON nyer perbezaan. yahoooo!!! creativity.... here i come!....c",)
whispering at...11:16 PM
